Thursday, March 29, 2007
clarissa is happy :)
he's talkin to me again..! not angry already..
smile smile smile..
i got my password back too..hehe.
okay. tat's all.
his nick put.. ".w.i.l.f.r.i.d. i love you baby!!"
hehe.
remb wad you promise..
hope you don disappoint me..
sealed with a kiss
11:36 PM
okay.. today is a rather busy day..
i managed to talk to him..and things are better i guess.. :)
:( but didnt actually have much time to spend with him cuz i was busy settling my school stuff..goin for medical check up.. and taking passport photo.
gotta settle all these stuff by today.. it's the last day already cuz my mum is supposed to pass these stuff to her friend by today.
otherwise i got no sch to go :( ..so it's lots of stuff to settle.
i'm sorry..but i hope you really understand. i wld love to spend time talkin to you.. but these stuff are really impt..
hais.
i thought tat everything wld be fine now..
but you're angry again..
hais.. why?
cuz i was really busy today and kept you waiting..?
but i really got no choice..
jus wish you cld understand and give me a call now..
i was so busy till i didnt get to eat anythin today or time to slack..
till i got home at 6 plus..
then i finally got to eat..
after tat i eat alittle fruits.
then started quickly doing my enrolment docs already...
so hope you will not be angry.
i really wish i cld talk to you cuz i miss you too.
but i really cldnt.
once i finished my work i called you..
but you jus didnt ans..
hais.
sealed with a kiss
8:50 PM
jus saw his msn nick..
jus feel like blogging.
"all the lies.. i know you dun anymore"
i wonder is he referring to me...
hais..
wad lies.
his lies...?those msges those girls?
i donno i'm confused upset..
how i wish he can explain all those to me..
sorry i jus cant help it..
but i miss him so much...
i wonder..
i ponder over these..
how much do i mean to you now..
do i mean anythin to you..
where do i stand..
do i still have a place in yr heart...
do i?
am i impt to you?
am i worthly of you?
crying now..cuz you keep callin but donno why i jus cant hear yr voice..
i don have the courage to call you..
why cant you jus call and talk i wonder..
wad are you thinking..pls tell me pls share with me..
do you love me.. do you still love me..
how much do you love me.?
hais...
sealed with a kiss
12:19 AM
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
oh man.. i'm speechless bout his actions..
jus cldnt believe it.. rather disappointed upset and angry too...
hais............
I WANT MY PASSWORD! GIVE IT BACK TO ME..!!
didnt do anything much today.. jus didnt have to mood.
jus changed nail colour.
:(:(:( donno wad to blog today.
don understand why must you summore go chat with my friends..
don you at least noe if they are really my gd friends they wont tell you anythin and they will most likely noe it's not me chattin with them..
jus the font difference or the display pic can noe it's not me already..
and the way you chat with them shows everything even more clearly.
nvm..
rather happy to see so many miss calls from you cuz you actually called..
but upon calling you back you didnt seemed to be tat happy or really cared bout me..
or issit jus me? am i wrong to think so..why are you doin this..
i really don get it.
why must you call and don talk..
since you call already why cant you talk.. issit tat difficult?
why must i be the one who call first and talk.
why? tell me why.
give me the reason..
shldnt i be the one who's waiting for yr call?
i'm not at fault i'm not at fault!
why do you wan to push me till this state?
you're so egotistic!
everything is how you feel.
then how bout me..
knowing tat you wan yr pride yr face.. i always give in to you.
always me apologising first even when i'm not wrong..
cuz with yr PRIDE. you will never make the first move...
but cant you jus throw yr worthless pride aside jus for me..
is tat more impt than me..?
i just feel worthless to you. :( :'(
i cant help it but to cry..
it hurts so much.
so badly.
sealed with a kiss
8:46 PM
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
why cant he jus call me..:( and talk to me.. don jus call and keep quiet.. i was very happy upon receiving yr call but it upsets me when you don talk.
okay. sth very interesting happened.. i cant sign in to my msn acc now.. the luv_hatred_frienz one..
hais.. guessed it..only you can do it.
so.. very bored.!
had been home the whole day again. watching tv...
okay so i woke up at 1 pm today
and did the enrolment stuff online..asked my mum sign some documents
then started my tv marathon till dinner time watched it even when i was eating..
so imagine how much the tv love me :) or how suductive was it. haha
supposed to go to the doc today but see.. end up never again. my passport photo too..
such a lazy girl right. :( no! i'm not. i'm a good girl.i stayed home like wad he wanted me to do..
yuppie. donno why feeling kinda tired..
slept rather ealy last night.. ard 1? 1plus?.. then woke up for awhile then went back to slp.
fell aslp with my keyboard and mouse on the bed... while i was chattin online with my friend..!
i'm feeling such a pig. :(
chatting with friends on my bed and summore fell aslp. best right :)
cant wait to get my laptop :) :) :)
tat's all for today. (:
i wonder do you miss me..
i wonder are you thinking bout me..
i wonder wad are you doin..
i wonder where are you..
jus donno whether to call you anot.
though i really wan to.
but you did not bother to reply my msges and answer my calls or jus simply rejectin them.
so tell me wad's the pont of doin so.
sealed with a kiss
8:24 PM
Monday, March 26, 2007
:( clarissa is unhappy.. i never rape you k.
it's so longgg ago already... why must they bring it up. it's all joseph chong's fault..
i'll never forget.. i just cant forget no matter how hard i try..
even though i forgave you but i jus cant forget..
hais.. it just upsets me.
nvm....
those memories just disgusts me..
just pray and hope that as time goes by it will fade away..
how i wish you can be right here now.
how i wish you can be there for me..
do you miss me? i do.
sealed with a kiss
11:50 PM
okay..he's angry and still ignoring me :(but i still cant believe wad i heard last night. so hurt so upset so embarrassed and feel so cheated..nvm.
he's a nice guy.. really he is..
maybe the problem is just with me.. :(
feeling so tired.
just heard things that i dont exactly seems to be pleased bout.. but i guess not everything can suit my way.
so yupp. had been a lazy girl and busy girl. lazy to blog and busy settling my enrolment stuff..
so sch is offically gonna start on the 16th :( :) kinda excited but kinda sad too.
and orientation is on 2nd to 5th.. heard it's gonna be fun for school of infomation tech.. so lets see.. i'll try to blog bout it everyday when it comes
so went shopping on sun :) and bought some new tops. i'll load some photos i took in the changing room..
i'll make full use of my last few days of holiday b4 sch starts :) hope i can meet nice ppl in sch hope i can fit in there.. lucky my lousy cousin is in there. haha.. oh ya. jus found out he'll be a OGL for his course but still under school of info tech so i'll still meet him and under him.. but he's kinda naggy.(sry cousin if you're reading this.. but i'm jus stating the fact :p)
tell me which one nicer.. the top one or bottom one.
love this top but don have my size anymore :(
so i bought the black one instead.
i bought this too.
i miss you.. i really do :(
hais
how i wish you can jus stop being angry and understand me
i'm getting tired.
you made it seems it's always my fault when the truth isnt so.
tell me wad can i do. :'(
i really wan to noe.
am i really tat bad am i not good enough..? :(
sealed with a kiss
5:48 PM
Thursday, March 22, 2007
okay.. i'm finally starting to blog after so longggg...
i'll start with tueday..i woke up early to prepare and went to cut hair.. (even though i wake up early to prepare i was still late and even after changing my appointment time to slightly later :p)
after tat i went back to jurong point bought two different slices of his favourite cake and headed to his work place to give him a surprise (: hope he did liked it.
ate alittle there.. and left after he finished work.. i met up with van whereas he went home to change promising that he'll meet up with me and send me home.. okay so.. me and van met up at heerens walked around then went over to cine.. oh ya. we happened to meet kenneth ong and jane outside cine (: we walked alittle at cine then went to hong kong cafe again.
but this time the main purpose was actually to see dom work.. haha.. end up dom was the one who served us. takin our orders.. we ordered food and was cam-whoring..
this is the peanut butter with condense milk toast.. so huge and fatting..!
we cld barely finish eating it.. partly cuz there's other food too.. but this toast is really not bad jus a little too sweet and fattin :p
us (:
i jus love this girl.. (dom don be jealous.. i might jus snatch her from you. be careful.. haha. jk)
after finish eating we left.. he was supposed to meet me but end up didnt cuz he was angry :( hais.. so sad really wanted to meet him.missed him so much. so me and van trying our luck walked to meridian after eating so much food..!wanted to see if he's there.. but he wasnt. he was at home. we went home after tat cuz he insisted so... oh man i took bus home! :) had been cabbing so often like nobody's business and i actually took a bus home so happy with myself but alighted at bukit panjang and took a cab home :(..cab cab cab! they are eating up all my money!!! :(
you know i actually stood in the bus cuz i was actually sitting next to a guy and he was not happy bout it asked who's tat guy how old how he looked like.. end up no other place next to a girl so i stand..
reached home.. showered and rest :)
after leaving.. outside cine at the traffic light there towards heerens..
van took this.nice?
meridian's toilet..
wednesday
met up with him :) okay he woke up late so meet up later than the timing we were supposed to..but i was happy to be able to meet him just the sight of him makes me happy.. meet at choa chu kang caught a movie.. blood and chocolate.. not bad.. then we left for serene centre.. jus to go island creamery :).. our cab fare was bout 12? but the ice-cream was nice.i bought take away cuz he doesnt wan to eat in there..
after tat we took bus 171 to bukit timah plaza to meet van and dom to play pool..quite fun (: then ate at pizza hut for dinner.. the waiter was damn funny... me and dom wanted to exchange phone but end up didnt cuz of our contacts.. haha. after tat we headed home..dom with van and wilfrid and me... at night wilfrid got alittle angry with me watchin tv..so...
then today.. i woke up rather early.. cldnt really slp.. so went down to watch tv :)
then didnt give him morning call but sent him a msg hopin tat he wld smile upon seeing the msg.. cuz thought he wld still be angry.. end up he overslept :( and i got scolded for not calliing. hais..nvm..guess it's my fault. he was angry with me quarrelled alittle then now i guess he's okay :) he got call me when he's workin today! hehehe.. overjoyed when i received the call..okay. so bored! that's all i guess.
i'll upload some pics taken on last sunday when i was out with van dom clarence and his gf.. and that day i actually lose my specs on a cab! so careless can.
at cine..k pool :)
jus us.. (:
me.. at hong kong cafe.. van took this.. when i wasnt lookin..
sealed with a kiss
2:32 PM
Monday, March 19, 2007
testin
sealed with a kiss
11:43 PM
